So today I was driving home from work and was in a pretty bad mood due to being stressed from work, although that’s probably my fault for letting everything get to me. But, this post isn’t about that, instead it’s about something that made me smile while I was on my way home. As I was driving home I turned to my left and I noticed the car next to me was having a blast listening to their music and for some odd reason that made me smile and made the rest of my drive so much more comfortable for me. Seeing the woman jam and completely love the song and lose herself in it made me want to be happier about my day and to not stress out over all the little details that happen not only at work but also in life in general. Next time I’m feeling down I’m going to listen to my favorite song in the car and completely and fully enjoy the moment.
MY BUCKET LIST
- Become an international student in South Korea.
- Learn to cook.
- Learn to control my finances.
- Travel to all the places I have dreamt of.
- New Zealand
- Become my own boss.
- Enjoy being loved.
- Become a role model for someone.
- Learn to snorkel.
- Learn to snowboard.
- Help my family follow their dreams.
I’ve been thinking about making my own bucket list for quite a while but due to the fact that I don’t usually follow through on most of my goals I’ve debated actually writing it down for as long as I’ve thought about making it. For some reason today it hit me that even if I don’t actually complete everything on my list I should still write it down as a way to have goals in my life. I know that writing down a bucket list won’t actually make me want to follow through with all the hard work that comes along with making those trips and wishes come true, but maybe it’ll become a good stepping stone towards me becoming more aware with what I can actually accomplish. The main reason I want to write this down though is so that I can start getting through my own issues of insecurity, I know that my insecurities are the main reason why I don’t do what I want. I always think that I’ll fail and I don’t want to live this way anymore, I mean who wants to live all their life with so many dreams and being to scared to even begin to chase them?
In all honesty, how can I look my sister or my mom in their eyes and tell them to be confident and that they should follow all their dreams when I sit in my room scared to even try? But that’s honestly what I do, I listen to their dreams and wishes and encourage them to follow them but whenever I think of a dream I think of all the reasons why I shouldn’t do it before thinking of why I should do it. Isn’t that something? Instead of encouraging myself to be better I bring myself down. I anticipate the failure of all my dreams without even giving them a chance to grow. Part of the reason why I anticipate the failure is also because I’m too lazy to do the research and work needed to accomplish something so instead of imagining the best outcome I imagine the worst to make myself feel better about not trying. It’s so much easier to just know you’re going to fail and not try instead of trying and having more obstacles come my way. Maybe being a homebody is not the greatest way to live this life, it’s nice to be able to be alone but it also saddens me to know that I’m missing so many opportunities just because I’m so afraid to go out and try.
I never learned how to express myself in public or alone, so all my feelings are always internalized and only show up once in a while when the smallest thing sets off ginormous emotions that come out of nowhere. Sometimes I’ll be watching TV and will just feel like crying out of the blue, that moment when I cry I feel so pitiful for not trying and for giving up without even trying, so this bucket list will be my first step to not pity myself or my decisions anymore.
So for some reason I’ve been really unhappy with a lot of things in my life lately and have decided that in order to cheer myself up I will start a wonderful Wednesday as a weekly corner. This corner will include anything that makes me smile on Wednesdays from something as small as a good picture that I take to hearing a nice joke from someone and anything in between. Exciting right?
So for my first ever Wonderful Wednesday it is actually a video that’s going pretty viral with the fans of One Direction which is the Carpool Karaoke segment they did at the “Late Late Show With James Corden”. I really enjoyed watching this video because although I don’t know much about One Direction other than that they had five members at first and one of them left and now they have four, but seeing and hearing them sing their hearts out really made me smile. I have two favorite parts in the video which are when the boys are surprised when James hits the high note at minute 5:29 and also when they are learning the dance that James choreographed for their song “No Control” at minute 6:37, also as an extra tidbit hearing how well they can sing specially when Harry hits his notes is also very entertaining. I think I may give a listen to their newest album, I know that they have had other albums in the past but hearing their songs in chronological order on the show has shown me that their latest album will be something that I will like. The small part that they sung for the songs “No Control” and “Perfect” sound like something I would really enjoy. So without further ado here is the video that made me smile this morning. I hope you enjoy it as much as I did.
So this is a throwback Thursday kind of post, I’ve had this in my drafts for about three months and never did anything with it, mostly because I didn’t have a computer to use but now that I have one I will be blogging more often. At least I hope I will….you never know with me, one day I say one thing and the next day the tune changes completely.
For now at least I’ll be working on this blog. Let’ see where it takes me down the road.
So for this past new year my parents, my younger sister, and I decided that we wanted to see the snow for new years so our plan was to go to Flagstaff. That didn’t work out however due to weather conditions. While driving to Flagstaff it was reported that no one was allowed in or out of Flagstaff due to a snow storm that had been pretty serious the last couple of days. We were already more than halfway to Flagstaff when we heard that and decided that we didn’t want to go back so we went to the nearest place which at the time was Payson, it was so beautiful!!
It didn’t hurt that the lake had a whole bunch of ducks and geese swimming so close to the edge to make this an unforgettable experience.
I really liked this tree!